My emotions are such a roller coaster. Earlier this week, I met this guy. And we were talking like everyday, he was making me laugh so much. But these past few days, we havent talked a lot. Now I feel such depression, well not really but you know what I mean. I don't have much energy to do anything and its the weekend. Let me rephrase that, it's my birthday weekend. Everything is just meh! I just wish I can have someone to talk to everyday and who makes feel happy.
I have spent so much money this weekend. More than I wanted to. I guess thats what happen when you move in a new place. I bought some sheets for my bed, Tommy Hilfiger. They are so nice, I like them a lot.
And now I am getting ready for a night out. I have to take it slow tonight since its been so long. And have to gear up for next weekend, birthday weekend.
I have been without Internet for the past few days. And it was so hard. We are so dependant on it that without it, we don't know what to do with our lives.
I moved in my apartment yesterday.I spend the past 2 days putting together various Ikea furniture and lifting. My room is a mess but at least the furniture is in the right places.
This is a new year. I realized that I have never actually come out. I can count on my fingers the number of people I told. My sexual preference is nobody's business but my own. I guess the need to announce to the world is just so you can get it off your chest. But you don't need. You have to come to term with it first of all. In the past, if someone came and asked me straight up, I would lie if I didn't trust them or if we weren't really close. But this year I am going to be courageous and just tell the truth if someone happens to ask.
I only recently came to term with it and I don't regret the fact that I am late than most people on my sexcapades. I am confident that all will happen when it supposed to.
I sometimes watch the youtube videos of people coming out and I am wondering why they have done the video. Most of those guys, you would know they are gay.: the hair, the hand gestures... there was no need to announce it.
I watched The Final Destination earlier this week. I was disappointed by its shortness. I found it to stray for the model of the other final destinations, which is why they called it The Final Destination. The main character had a premonition about how the others were going to die. Maybe I should watched Halloween 2.
I am planning to go out tomorrow. It's been so long since I stepped foot in a club. So this will be fun. Block party, here I come.
I am going to go fall asleep reading GQ.
Finally, work is done!
Finally, I am on my way back to Ottawa. And I got free internet at the moment on the train :D
Finally, I will be able to see the friends that I missed so much
But I am starting to miss my little brother back home. They are starting school today, which I find is stupid.
The view on the train is so beautiful. I love how you can see Lake Ontario for most of the ride.
Today marks the 8th year since the death of Aaliyah. She was a remarkable artist. She was gone too soon. One of her songs is one of the songs that has been stuck in my head for as long as i can remember before I knew who sang it. I remember when I heard it. I was 9 or 10 and I was in my cousin's room. Mind you I remember very little from when I was little as I moved around from country to country a lot. So I will leave you with that song.
Oh my what a storm/tornado. High winds and all. Granted it didn't last long but the lightening was really close. After it passed, everything looked orange to me. It still does now.
Uggghhh. I haven't worked in the last few days and I feel that staying at home is very toxic. I had a full time job but that is done now. I still have my part time job but that is only a few shifts a week. Honestly staying at home doing nothing, it feels like my soul is being eaten away. I also find myself to be back in my little shell.
It's an awkward situation with my parents. They don't seem upset with the roommates situation but they probably are. My mom which was the one who was most against it doesn't talk about it anymore. But my dad keeps bringing it up.
Thank god, i found a temporary job for tomorrow. Temporary job sucks but they fill in the blank time. The one tomorrow is in Milton, one of the little towns on the outskirts of suburbia. I thought it would be like 45 mins away but according to Mapquest, it is only 25 mins away. I will only be doing quality control, sounds boring. I just hope the day goes by fast.
September cannot come fast enough and neither can school.
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